Mother

Am I not fit to be a mother? 

Is it wrong to decide and plan what I want for my baby?

Why do I have to work and leave my baby to the care of others?

Will my baby be close to me when he's all grown up?

The lists of questions is endless and with no support, I feel like I'm falling off the cliff. The amount of stress, fear, worry and pain I held all these while, I'm never sure how long I could last. Limited time with the little one and there is so much that I can do, but I couldn't. Why do I let others control this? Why can't I be more firm? Why am I so weak? 

Oh Allah, please guide me. please give me the strength to go through this.