have you ever felt so mad and angry and upset and just mad all at the same time? i tried to shake off the feeling but i can't. every time i think about it, i get more mad. it is nice to share and i know you feel happy sharing the news but i just don't like it. why must you tell everyone? it is my event. i get to choose what i want. no? i wanted this to be just a small family affair with some of my close friends. and i only want a few people to know about my engagement. only a handful. there is no use telling everyone else. it is just tunang for goodness sake. what if something goes wrong later on? wouldn't it be troublesome for you to explain to those who are so kpo to ask what happened? it is not that i want it to happen, please don't. it is just that, what if? you know.... it really sucks to be in this position. i say too much, i get scolded. then what should i do? it really really sucks to be feeling like this. i feel like i could explode any moment. but i can't. i can't. Ya Allah, is this one of your tests?
oh how i hate this feeling. and at this moment i feel like cancelling the engagement. am i being too emotional and self-centered?
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