One Month

One month. The moment I've been waiting for. I've always complained (to myself) why is the date so far away. Well, now I'm the one who's nervous about the day. Am I ready for this? Am I prepared to go through all the challenges? I know it is just engagement but it holds a totally different title to us. Well, for what I think, at least. To be engaged means you're about to spend the rest of your life with that person for the rest of your life, Insya'allah. I'm not saying I'm regretting this, oh hell no. It's just overwhelming. Very. 

I hope I'm strong enough to face the situations. I was told that you will face to challenges. One is before your engagement, the other before your marriage. It's always a month or so before the date. Truthfully, me & him have been having arguments these few days. Mainly me, coz I'm the one who find fault with whatever he's doing. It's like I want his attention and when I don't get it, I'm pissed. My grandfather told me that situation like this usually happens to "test" you and your partner. To see whether you are ready, fully ready for the next step. I thought over and over about it and find that it's quite true. Like if you can't stand being with that person coz of some bad situations, how are you going to "survive" your marriage like the same thing that is going to happen? Right?

Hopefully with His blessings, we can go through this. Amin.

// on a side note, my friend got admitted to the ICU again. He's in a serious condition. :( Let's take a moment to pray for him and his health. May Allah be with him always. Amin. //