27

T W E N T Y - S EVEN  more days guyssss.... O-M-G

 

Can you believe it that it's only 27 days away till I'm someone's wife. I don't think I can ever get used to be called that. hahaha, opps, sorry fiancé.

 

It's been a hectic few months/weeks/days. When did I last blog? hmmm, somewhere in October, wait I check....... yep. October, 90 days away, that's like 64 days gone! Cepat pe!

 

So, fiancé and I have decided not to meet for the last 26 days (should have been 30 but oh wells). Pantang larang lah kononnye tapi yang ni kita sendiri yang buat. Short and simple. No meet ups. So we will miss each other more. Actually kan, dah biasa pun tau tak jumpa die. Remember when he left" me for 3 months? tu lagi teruk beb. Dapat whatsapp/whatsapp call/Skype call and the calls sometimes annoying nak mati coz connection lembab. so that one lagi teruk than this 26 days.

 

Most of the things is settled, just a few more things that I keep on procrastinate. you know, I rather watch my youtube videos than doing and thinking about wedding. hahaha. really. actually I keep seeing UK youtuber hauls so I know what to buy when I'm there! heh heh. Honeymoon lagi exciting dari wedding seh. kan kan kan.

 

 

 

Gift Trays - finishing up the paintings and finally visualize the whole concept I've been keeping in the back of my mind.

 

Wedding Cake - I think this is the most nerve-wrecking task. as you all know, I'm baking my own wedding cake. It's exciting but at the same time I keep worrying it will not turn out that well. I better have lower expectations of my own capability, no?

 

Box for Duit Salam - I know I can just grab A3 boxes at work and just wrap it with wrapping paper, but I choose not to coz mcm tkde standard. hahaha. Box pun kena ada standard eh? YA. I merepek like that. I have something in mind already. We shall see.

 

Bunga Rampai Holder - His side = done. He very senang coz he not leceh like me. Once again, I tk suka typical melayu kind of bunga rampai holders, so I cari sendiri what I want.

 

Itinerary - Done, left with few more touching up and ready to sent to vendors.

 

Candy Corner - Status : Pending

 

Photobooth - I have yet to check out the place again (ugh, I am hopeless). Need to check again where is the place so I could plan the whole photobooth area.

 

Bridesmaids - I have THREE! Planning of meeting the three of them soonest to discuss the details and I'm thinking of doing a thank you box for them; basic essentials for that day and some snacks! Maybe I should do something similar for the bestmans too.

 

Room - Clearing up bit by bit and it's getting there! Also, I can't believe the amount of clothes that we threw away (ok, donated). seriously like a lot. And most of the jeans I can't fit anymore! I just bought them last year and I'm the kind of person who can wear the jeans for years. so this just proves another point. I really did gain. Don't even mention the belly fat. nauzubilllahminzalik. memang dah confirm plus chop kena pakai corset. buruk kan, orang kurus tapi perut boncit. hahahahahaha.....

 

 

 

I seriously can't believe it that is only a matter of days till a change of status. I keep thinking to myself, what kind of a wife will I be? Am I going to be the same Fiqah or a changed Fiqah. I never know. Time will pass and I guess people change as it pass by. I might be a better version of the old Fiqah (Insyallah, ameen).

 

I keep thinking to myself how will I be at someone else's house? How will I survive in a different household? It's never the same. One thing for sure, I will miss my nenek and atuk more than ever. I lived with them my whole life and to think that I will be seeing them every once a week... it's kinda heart-breaking.

 

but hey, a new life = a new chapter right? Insyallah I will be fine, Insyallah.

 

 

xoxo,

Fiqah

 

90

Doubts = cleared

 

I've been ranting on how bad I want to meet my vendor for both catering and décor the other day. Well fret not, I've already met him and had my doubts and questions cleared! We decided to meet at the venue itself and brought along our parents with us. It was a great discussion, coz the parents were able to clear their questions as well and were happy with the location, food and the drafted floor plan. Remember the other time when I was asked to do the sirih dara/junjung and bunga pahar, after the meet up sesh, mom said that I don't have to do it! Yay! Thanks to Uncle Lan  (my vendor for both food n décor) for saying that it is all adat, and even if we wanna have them, it has to match the décor if not, it will ruin the whole look (which I totally agree). so yay for not having them for my dulangs! not a necessary item, so why put so much pressure on it right?  

 

Can you believe that it's already a two digit countdown? I can't, I definitely can't. exactly 90 more days and I'm very sure I still have a few other things that is not done. Been procrastinating for quite some time now and I really have to get down on it soon.

 

Kain is already sent to the tailor's, so one item is checked off the dulang list. Since my fiancé is going to Saudi next week and have a few days to spare before he gets his work pass, I told him to look for any nice sejadah and Al-Quran for our dulang. Mana lah tau ada yang cantik-cantik punya kat sana kan.

Talking about dulang, I've yet to print the placecards. I've already did some designs and still sourcing where to print it.

Oh, the bunga rampai too! I've yet to buy the holder for it!

Let's side track a lil bit; here's me and the Mr at ROMM the other day. We've already "passed" the interview and currently can't wait to get married yo! hahaha!

 

 

Wanna know something?

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We've yet to buy our wedding rings. :x

 

Wanna know something else?

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I don't want to start packing my clothes/things to move to his house, not even when the date is nearing. The nearer the date is, the more I don't want to. The thought of me staying there already instantly kills me inside. What if I just can't adjust with the living environment there? What if I keep comparing the living lifestyle with my own home till I can't take it and go crazy? Why do people think that it will be alright to stay with your in-laws? They kept saying things like "ala, sekejap je tinggal setahun kat sana" "bukan lama pun satu tahun". Like hello, yang tinggal tu aku ke kau seh. Cakap memang senang but not you who go through it. And before you can say why don't rent a house instead, I would definitely love to, but after calculating the budget, we decided not to coz we still have to save up for our upcoming house. Things are not cheap nowadays, honey. I wish I could rant out more here, but just to be safe, I better not. You never know who will read this blog, and if they see I'm bitchin' bout them, I am definitely not safe.

 

Somehow I feel that one day I will blog about : How to live with your in-laws. :x

 

Do you what is sad? Going for a fitting without your fiancé. why do you have to overseas when I need you most?

 

 

xoxo,

Fiqah

Clarifications

so, on my previous post, I've said that I was stressed out about my Bridal coz I haven't been seeing updates from their social media sites. And I failed to mentioned that things have changed since that post.

 

I just want and have to clarify something which hopefully benefit both me and the bridal. I don't want BTBs or anyone to think the wrong way just because they misinterpreted what I post previously.

 

So... I've just received a call from my Bridal and she was updating me on her new bridal outfits and telling me that some of her customers came to her after reading my blog, some even booked her as their bridal (which is a good thing, Alhamdulillah). Well, the bad thing is this... someone mentioned to her that I said on my blog that the Bridal I booked cheated my money. That is obviously so not true. N to the O, NO. They never cheat my money and what I said was purely a saying out of my stressful state of mind.

 

"It is not that I’m saying they’re cheating out of our money (hopefully not)" >> this is what I posted. Maybe some misinterpreted it, but it is just not right. You've got to check around first before saying anything to anyone. You can even ask me personally with what is going on.

 

I should have listened to my fiancé who have been telling me to yakin in whatever you do or decide, and to always think positively. He always believed in the vendors we chose. If I had listened, this wouldn't had happen right?

 

But Alhamdulillah, everything is fine. I feel so so terrible after hearing this and I never wish this to happen even. Honestly I never expect anyone to read this blog because, I've been seeing my own view section or whatever it is called and it was ZERO most of the time. Mehhh....

 

I apologise for the misunderstandings. And I sincerely apologise to my bridal for the negativity thoughts people had towards them.

 

SO PLEASE PEOPLE.... DONT MISINTERPRET ANYTHING OK???

 

The power of social media... haisssssss.....

Silent Chaos

Chaos; that is how my brain is right now, last week, and weeks before.

 

My Fiancé and I decided to push our date forward to late 2015. And there are zero bookings are made as of now. I only went to one bridal appointment yesterday and panicked after that. The wedding is just next year and not a single vendor is booked.

One of the hardest things is deciding which vendor and fixing appointments. My fiancé is currently outstation and it is hard to communicate with him regarding all this. I know that now there is technology with Whatsapp, Skype, yada yada yada. But with poor internet service at his side, you tell me how. On top of that, I’m the kind of person who prefers to discuss face-to-face. I feel so puas. You know what I mean. I get to express every thoughts and feelings without figuring how he is going to understand whatever situation we’re in. It’s just better to discuss face-to-face. If tak happy, angkat kaki jalan. No need to hang up (gosh, I hate that so damn much).

Ok, so… We have decided to do a combine event and invite a total of 600 pax. So that means, 300 his side and 300 mine. We have both talked to our parents, and I talked to my grandparents and all of them agree. The venue we’re looking at is at Gurame. My dream wedding venue... Something about that beautiful landscape just blew me away. Tell me, who doesn’t love the gorgeous scenery of the sky and the endless sea. Gurame offers a package of, Venue + Catering + Décor. And there is also transport for the guests from Tanah Merah Int to the venue. A plus! This means that I will save time on searching for Catering and Décor. Less vendors equals to less headaches.

As for Bridal, I’m thinking of engaging Kahwin Kawin Bridal. They have a package with photography at a good price. Also, when I met her yesterday, she seems nice and friendly. She showcase her outfits and they were so gorgeous. The feel of the baju is just what I secretly love. I love the bohemian,  vintage kinda stuffs and she got it. Her slots are also limited and I’m really hoping I could get her as my bridal.

Right now, I’m waiting for my fiancé to be back (next next week) and go for appointment at Gurame. If I can get the date I want (insyallah, ameen ameen ameen), I will straight away book KKB as my bridal. Ya Allah, please give us your blessings.

And there are still a lot of stuffs to be done (assuming the above mentioned is booked).

- Wedding Cards (50% by Gurame – I still don’t get this part) 

- Videography

- Kompang

- Deejay

- Henna

- Wedding Cake (alr set my mind on MadBatterSG coz my engagement cake is just too awesome)

- Sirih Dara

- Bunga Rampai

- Gift Trays (thinking of DIY)

- Gift Items

- Tailor made baju for parents/grandparents/siblings (have to cari kain)

 

 

xoxo,

Fiqah

Updates and Rants

It’s been awhile since I last blogged. The last I blogged was selecting the flat. Now it’s time for wedding preparations part 1: Quotations and Surveys.

So. Mainly, we've decided on the date and venue. We both are going to do a separate 2 day event. 1^st day will be the solemnization day, 2^nd will be the wedding ceremony. Initially I wanted to do a combined event but he insist that we should separate.  I don’t even want to bother putting down the reasons. It has always been the typical oh-so-melayu reason. Sometimes I just don’t get it, yang kahwin ni siapa? Kita ke parents kita? Kan?

I’ve been searching for vendors and Farhana from KahwinKhronicles really give a good list of vendors in Singapore. From the bridal to catering to deco to kompang. Ala...Kirakan satu package ah dia kasi kau. She also provide the wedding budget templates. I'm thankful to have bloggers like this. 

I’m the kind of person who don’t like to chin chai chin chai decide on things, especially on my wedding. Budget pun budget lah, but if dah tak lawa, siapa nak kan? I've been asking for quotations here and there. Some of it are reasonable and right there, but some (especially the ones I really really like) mencekikkan orang aje.

I asked my colleague (BTB this Dec) what was her quotation last year for this particular vendor (deco) and she told me that last year was way cheaper. This year they really marked up the price. If ikutkan hati, I would signed up for it. But… I just can’t. Moving on I asked the other deco that I liked (for quite some time already, Elly Weddings). The price was within my budget but…. They NO LONGER TAKE VOID DECK BOOKINGS! Ahhhhh tidakkkkkk!!! I dah fall in love with the deco, but why? Why? Why you tak ambil void deck booking lagi? Sedih... Nak nangis… I've made my decision with void deck for my wedding coz 1: cheaper 2: easier to go up and change outfit.

(Speaking of which, I really need to do something about the room. Change bed, change wardrobe, all change. hahah... that shall be the later topic. This one confirm kena bising pasal nak tukar semua. hahaha...)

Haiss... cubaan cubaan. Now I gotta look for the ones that fit into my budget and taste. You see, I’m the kind of person that once I like something, I will ignore the other things. Now I gotta let go of this attitude and look further. Mana tau, ade lagi better offer that caters to what I like right?

The Dreamers Soiree, a wedding event that I’ve RSVP-ed to and it looks like I couldn’t make it. When it is opened for RSVP, aku punya semangat… cepat-cepat log in and send email. But now, since my other half is away to U.A.E. for work, we couldn't make it for the event. Sedih ok. Looks like Fluff is off my list for wedding cake.

Oh, oh! I have a backup plan for my wedding cake, MadBatterSG! Sungguh tak sabar ku nak order coz her cakes sedap gila nak mati! I still am remembering my engagement cake, the oh-so-moist blueberry cake with cream cheese and maple frosting. Mmhhhmmmm… sedapppppp…

my engagement cake! (photo : from MadBatter SG )

Note to Mr. Fiancé: 

1 - I want this cake for 1 year engagement.

2- You shall not take my baker for the wedding cake. You go and search for others okay. Hehehe…

xoxo,

Fiqah

Salam Ramadan

Bulan Ramadan, bulan yang penuh dengan rahmat. Good things comes to those who wait. We waited, patiently, even after the dissapointment of our first HDB application. Alhamdullilah, we've got a good queue number for our flat selection. It's the big tiga puluh sen you alls... Hehehe... It's at the same location still but only divided by the road. heh heh.

and so... tomorrow is the date where Mr. F & I will be selecting our flats. I am very very very excited. Hopefully, the units we chose are still available. Amin. 

taking this opportunity (even though it's the third week already, hehe), I would like to wish all muslim brothers and sisters a very blessed Ramadan. May Allah bless us all. Amin.

and also taking this opportunity, I would to share my new creation. not that new actually. It's my Smores cupcake which is turned to a tart version. Shall I say that it was a crowd pleaser. Oh, not forgetting, another cake that I craved, VSC with fresh berries. I've seen too many cakes for the past week and I just had to bake it. #ijusthadto . Feast your eyes with these two beautiful desserts.

xoxo,

Fiqah

Tiny little diamonds on my finger

yup, I'm ENGAGED!

It was a lovely ceremony and all went well, Alhamdullilah. I thank Allah for his blessings and for all that had happen. Insyallah, Mr. Fiancé and I will get married in 2 years time. Amin.

I have to admit there were some hiccups along the way. Especially on the night before and also on the morning itself. It was totally my fault. I have no else to blame but myself. Sometimes I get too caught up with whats happening and when I lose control, I freak and I start to find fault with whoever and whatever that just gets in my way. such a bitch right. 

The first hiccup was the cake. Initially it was dark choc glaze to coat the cake but dad insisted that I used white chocolate instead so that the fruits I was going to put on, shows and more visible. I agreed and it turns out to be a disaster. Firstly, the glaze was see through, that already pisses me off. Secondly, it just won't set! You bet I was super annoyed. I had to think of another way to cover up the sides as it was showing through the glaze. I walked around Sheng Siong to find something and I found the pocky sticks! I'm so glad that Sheng Siong is 24/7, if not I will be so dead. I don't have enough chocolate on hand either. Pocky sticks saves me. It turned out nice too!

The second hiccup was between me and him. I know it's going to sound ridiculous, but I was being super ridiculous at that moment. His parents don't allow him to come to my house when they finished the whole ceremony. I was super pissed. You know, I was hoping and wishing that he would come and see me and bring me some flowers and take an engagement photo. I really wanted that but it was crushed the moment he said he can't. I started arguing that it was our day and they should respect our decision. I even blasted my anger to my family unknowingly. They say that this is the ADAT and according to that he should not come. Like seriously, wth kan. This is like 2014 already, like hello?! But who am I to have a say in this, right? I had to just deal with it, like it or not. 

I dealed with it. It sucks though. I wanted one thing and just one thing only. A photo of us, engaged, so I could keep for memories sake. Well, just not my day. 

Besides the hiccups that mainly caused by me, the rest went well. The night before, my family, grandaunties & uncles, aunties & uncles helped out by gotong-royong-ing. We cooked our own food and gosh, it was tiring. I didn't do any of the work but by looking at it, I just can't take all the leceh-ness and the penat-ness. Hahah! It dragged on to the next morning coz they have to cook the lauk-lauk. The smell is just so sedap! which I get to eat in the evening after everyone went home. 

This should be it. I wanna head back to bed. but before that....

I want to thank Allah for his blessings in making this ceremony a smooth and a happy one. I want to thank my family (mak, atuk, ibu, ayah and siblings) for the endless efforts they contributed. I want to thank my aunties and uncles for helping out. Also my grandaunts and granduncles for their contribution of "energy" despited their old age. I want to thank Bernard for dolling me up like an Egyptian princess and my siblings and cousins in helping me to dress up. I want to thank my two girlfriends who helped out in taking photos and Polaroids. Thank you for the gifts I received from my two sisters, girlfriend and grandaunt. Not forgetting, I want to thank to everyone who came, be it my family or friends or relatives. Thank you to all. Alhamdullilah.

 

The gift trays from me to him. Nice right..... I took so much time in just decorating this. Black-Grey-Silver theme. I felt bad plucking the flowers out from the "stem" but I just had to. So sorry to the person who loaned this to me. Ooopppsssss..... heh. 3 from the trays are from my aunties. Lucky lucky Mr. Fiance. He gets the good stuffs. 

Outside, all so serious but us, in the room are goofing around! Hahaha! Nervous seh. Baru tunang, kalau kahwin macam mane? Hahahaha!!!

and....... she put the ring on it. It should have been him right? and speaking of which, I'm still upset and disappointed that he never propose to me. I will still hold on to it till forever ok Mr.!

his side.

our poly friends. 

my girlfriend, aunt & mum.

my poly girlfriends.

this is when my girlfriends forced me to pose. "eh pose sikit, pose mcm kau eksyen tgk tu cincin". HAHAHAHHAHA terpaksa lah aku pose eh. mcm fail pun ada. HAHAHA

gotta go. nights to whoever reads this. hahaha!



xoxo,
Fiqah

Food Adventure

Well, this is embarrassing. I should take a mental note not to blog when you're very sleepy. What was I thinking. "Drama going on over at high school"? I bet this is the part where Suburgatory is stuck in my head. Yeap. Definitely is. 

Moving on, this marks the second last day of being a girlfriend. Seriously, changing from a girlfriend to a fiancee is kinda big. It's like you have more responsibility that you already have. You even have another set of future family-in-laws. It is not that I wanna take a step back but this is different. Different from what I've used to for the last 1823 days. 

Let's take a break on that and see the photos that I've been meaning to post. Food. Food. Food.

I cannot tell you how much I LOVE I Am Cafe's cocktails. They're like AMAZING! Fish & Chips were my choice and those to-die-for rainbow crepes were his for our little tea time. The fish is light, crispy, not oily and fresh. A lil pet peeve though is that WHY NO LEMON in my fish & chips? It is the most basic essential in every fish and chips. 

Then it was my lil brother's 14th birthday. I'm in charge of baking his birthday cake and also an excuse to experiment something that I've been wanting to do for my engagement cake. and TADAAAAAA!! this is the end result! It was absolutely yums to the max. Who would ever say no to chocolate? Not me. Even dad & uncle says it taste like Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence. 

There's a layer of crunchy nutella feuilletine with a soft chocolate sponge which is topped with luscious dark and milk chocolate mousse. And all is enclosed with rich dark chocolate glaze. Do I need to say more?

Then a dinner date with Mr. F @ Fish n Co. The food was good and the only thing I would rave about is the pasta and also the fries. Such a sucker when it comes to potatoes. Love love anything that has potatoes. Anw, the pasta, sauce is so creamy and sinful and the prawns are well seasoned.

An impromptu belated mother's day dinner at Ah Poh Kitchen which is located at Clementi Ave 2. The food here is definitely better than the ones at West Coast Plaza. It is the same company only that they have different name. Don't ask why coz I don't know. I think the cook here is more power thus the food is nice. Have to admit though, the service here is slow. So next time you're in Clementi, head over to Ah Poh Kitchen for good halal zi char. Oh, almost forgot, there is no GST or Service Charge which is definitely a PLUS!

Then there was the time when we (my family and Mr. F) had early dinner at Koh Nangkram, the Halal Thai food at Bugis. The pandan chicken and tom yam is the best! The chicken is tender, juicy and packed with flavor. No one like hard rubbery chicken right. Also, the tom yam is packed with spices. You can taste the sour, sweet and spicy. I live the heat it gives when you sip a little bit of that soup. Perfection. The only complain is that the service is slow, super slow. They had quite a number of staffs compared to the previous location they're at. Just tell your workers to chop chop go! fast fast go! Why can't we dine with excellent food and fast service but affordable? Hmm... 

And there was me just being greedy during lunch. Regular pizza all for myself. My colleagues was surprised as I am to finish all that at once. HAHAH... oh, don't you worry, I had a filling dinner too. :)

Can't remember what we did on that day but Churros was for tea time. SO GOOOOD. SOOOO SOOO GOOOD!

Oh, I remembered. It was a bagedil making session at home. HAHAHA. a bucket full of mashed potatoes waiting to be shaped and freezed. Intesive labour of peeling, cutting and frying those yellow goodness. Thanks to the handy dandy mini ice cream scoop, we had all the mashed potatoes the same size and it definitely makes the job so much faster. And I had to, just had to make it a lil heart shape. 

Leftover candies were lying around at home, and those wedding gifts from my cousin cousin's wedding. They had like cartons of sweets and gave some to us. So we packed them into individual little goodies bags to distribute to the little kids who will be coming over to the engagement. yup.

And lastly, the last feast for now. Hajjah Maimunah. Nothing to rave about. The food are just normal. A good thing that it was not my money, coz it doesn't worth spending so much on just average food. 

Finally all the photo of food are out of my phone and there are some space! I guess the next post will be about the engagement itself. 

xoxo,

Fiqah

Countdown

Seven. The number of days left to the engagement.

I couldn't consider everything is done, but it is almost there. Well, the major stuffs are almost completed. The items for the gift trays are bought, well except for the bread and fresh fruits for the basket I'm planning to do. I'm more excited for the bread basket and I've never seen anyone done it before (well, to me). I just love the idea of bread basket. having a slice of thick cut freshly baked bread with the luscious spread of jam or honey. oh, nothing beats the smooth spread of brie cheese on a warm toasted slice of bread. mmmmhhhhmmmm..... just thinking of it makes my mouth waters. -.- I do sympathize myself for being weird all the time.

The biggest fuss might be the gift trays coz there is just too much ideas streaming through my brain. One idea after another and I couldn't decide what I wanted. I've come to the extend of thinking to ditch the trays I got from my cousin and buy a new set. At that time I wanted a wooden-fresh flower-chic-kinda tray. Like garden inspired or something. But as expected, I;m not allowed to purchase a ridiculous new set of trays. Firstly, it's obviously such a waste of money. And secondly, I don't fancy a constant nagging on how i shouldn't waste my money on such stuffs when I already have right in front of me. My mum helped in decorating the trays, well mostly I did most of the work while she thinks on whether to use foam as the base of the trays or not. In the end, we settled for newspaper. Eh, surathkhabar lah siaaaaaa..... HAHAHA. It turned out to what I kinda imagined. It had this simple yet messy but elegant kind of look. It's hard to describe it here though. I did the next best part, which is, the flowers. I played around with what I had and of course I made it look super elegant. Well to me it is. I suddenly fell in love with arranging the flowers and told my mum I should be a florist instead. Hahaha. Oh, speaking of which, should I have a flower bouquet on my engagement? Should I? or I must have it? 

The next fuss was the food. My mum decided to cook ourselves and gotong royong with my aunts and relatives. She said that we could save cost and it is more worth it. I couldn't agree more but it is tiring though. But the gotong royong spirit beats it, I believe. We started some of the preparations earlier this week and freeze it. This means a thing or two lesser to think of. First was par boil the beef lungs for one of the dishes. Second was making of bagedil (potato cakes).  Patah pinggang dibuatnya. Sakit benar sih. (I personally blame the toilet for being dirty and had me to scrub it off) 

I've been meaning to insert photos here but my eyes tell me to shut itself. 

So, I will upload once finished all this drama going on over at high school. -.-

Night night.


xoxo,
Fiqah

One Month

One month. The moment I've been waiting for. I've always complained (to myself) why is the date so far away. Well, now I'm the one who's nervous about the day. Am I ready for this? Am I prepared to go through all the challenges? I know it is just engagement but it holds a totally different title to us. Well, for what I think, at least. To be engaged means you're about to spend the rest of your life with that person for the rest of your life, Insya'allah. I'm not saying I'm regretting this, oh hell no. It's just overwhelming. Very. 

I hope I'm strong enough to face the situations. I was told that you will face to challenges. One is before your engagement, the other before your marriage. It's always a month or so before the date. Truthfully, me & him have been having arguments these few days. Mainly me, coz I'm the one who find fault with whatever he's doing. It's like I want his attention and when I don't get it, I'm pissed. My grandfather told me that situation like this usually happens to "test" you and your partner. To see whether you are ready, fully ready for the next step. I thought over and over about it and find that it's quite true. Like if you can't stand being with that person coz of some bad situations, how are you going to "survive" your marriage like the same thing that is going to happen? Right?

Hopefully with His blessings, we can go through this. Amin.

// on a side note, my friend got admitted to the ICU again. He's in a serious condition. :( Let's take a moment to pray for him and his health. May Allah be with him always. Amin. //

it should be today...

Today was supposed to be our exciting day. 

The instance I received the email from HDB the first time, I knew we could never make it. But I hold on to that thought and prayed every single day to get that house. Unfortunately we didn't. Truthfully, I kinda lost hope. I really liked the location. I even went down to see the site. Haiss... Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. 

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This is the first email I received after submitting the application. That 343 was such a turn off. You see the no of units available! That is like doubled the original quantity!

Then I was browsing the HDB website and click here, click there, logged in... I saw that we were Invited to select the flat. (I was extra excited at that time).

Then two weeks before today, this email came....

Now I just have to wait for a new opening that interests me. There is one in March, which is this month. But nah, I don't like the location. Why Sembawang? Why Sengkang? Why Yishun? WHYYY

and that is exactly how I'm feeling right now HAHAHAHAHA...

ok. I should get back to work, or maybe internet surfing. hehe. 2 hours more to end work. :D

xoxo,

Fiqah